Memories...

Hello again...

I received a message from a primary school friendthis afternoon asking me if i was free next saturday for a primary school class gathering. This makes me sound really old but i assure u i am not. heh, guess my age all you want haha. Anyway, due to the unhapymemories from primary school days, i said i would not go. However, i think my friend got a vibe or sth that the real reason i didn't want to go for the gathering was because of what happened back in the day. No i'm not going to spell it out bacause it has been a number of years since the incidents and i don't want to talk about it.

And she messaged me encouraging me to go and that nobldy cares about how i look like anymore. But, seriously, i really dun give a damn about how pple look at me because i think it's based on inner beauty . If you are a gorgeous person outside but u are a bitch inside, sorry, out the door you go. Then i said it was the memories. To be honest i really wanted to go but i was afraid that they would start making fun of me and doing the same things that they did back then plus i didn't want to feel awkward in the group.
She really wanted me
togo. I think this is one good thing. at least i am not thoroughly hated in the class. haha. She was sincere and tried convincing me to come. Which worked. Please do not think i am an easy person to convince. only in certain situations. This is one of them because i really wanted to go and let bygones be bygones. I am tired of bringing the memories in my head because i think i am drowning myself with self-pity and i think it is of no good and no use. Adn i want to give people the benefit of the doubt. People change and by bringing up the bad things would ruin feelings and friendships to come , perhaps.

I hope i have made the roght decision and that it will not disappoint me. But i think i will be right and all things would go well. Wish me luck.

Word of advice: Giving people the benefit of the doubt would make you feel good and that u would know that you have tried. It also lets the other party know that despite their misdoings you are willing to give them the benefit of the doubt and trust them or what not. You would feel good.

This is how i feel. haha. Hope that it helps. because you may never know that the person you gave the benefit of the doubt could be your aliby of sth or your wall in months or years to come. In life you have to take risks to get what you want...